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[imatreenow]

For those moments when we're in between posts and need to thread something out.

Please note the date and the type of post - action, written, or voice.

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voice - March 25th

[halflived]

I can think of plenty of things, I don't doubt we even share a few of them in common. [Those fears hadn't always been there, but they keep growing in number every day.

Mithos wasn't Human, he'd made that clear and the way he spoke all those times gave him a glimpse of the worries he had.]

voice - March 25th

[imatreenow]

[He's supposed to be hiding everything, but he can't stop the question from slipping out, pushed by the curiosity that has lingered in the back of his mind since he first met the other boy.]

So it's true...you're not a human either, are you? [It might be foolish to ask supported by only the thinnest evidence. He regrets it almost immediately, because does it even matter? He tells himself that he doesn't want Aleos to understand. He doesn't want him to get ideas. He doesn't want anything from him.]

voice - March 25th

[halflived]

I think part of you might want me to be, just so it's easier to push me in with the rest of them, right? [It wasn't an outright yes, but it was close enough without outright saying it. Just because he's been told it won't matter doesn't mean he can reverse months and a future of fear just like that.

It was hard to not remember the nightmares he has about what they've done to him, and others he cares about.]

voice - March 25th

[imatreenow]

[He can say nothing, because Aleos may be right - it would be easier if he could just write him as a human and not look back. He hates looking back, but he's always had difficulty looking forward.]

...It doesn't matter anyway. [He's tired of letting others raise his hopes, only to dash them on the ground again. He refuses to give into that cycle. And so, he backtracks.]

voice - March 25th

[halflived]

... I'm sure it doesn't. [But his tone doesn't support that statement at all, it's clear that he doesn't believe it. That he asked if he was Human or not was telling in and of itself.]

Survive anyway.

voice - March 25th

[imatreenow]

I will, but not because you command me to. [His voice glints with a steel edge again, but it is dulled as if forced to fight for far too long. Without further comment or thought, he shuts the journal.]