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[imatreenow]

For those moments when we're in between posts and need to thread something out.

Please note the date and the type of post - action, written, or voice.

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may 26th | action

[imatreenow]

[He shakes his head immediately.] It isn't selfish to miss someone you care about. [Maybe it is, but selfishness is not a crime. Sometimes you deserve to be a little selfish in this world or any other.]

...Who is she?

may 26th | action

[sketchingideals]

[...oh. Talking about the girlfriend to the person who was his boyfriend for a week. This might get a little awkward. Tread lightly, Jeb.]

Her name's Tori. We've known each other since childhood, and... she's one of the most important people in my life.

may 26th | action

[imatreenow]

I hate how the Malnosso toy with us. [Yes, listen to that inclusive first person plural pronoun. He didn't think he would be this upset about Jeb being the victim of the same cruel torture he'd gone through, but something about it...] Already we have to worry that we might never see the people we care about most again, and when they do arrive we never know if they'll be taken away again.

may 26th | action

[sketchingideals]

[This does surprise him, yes... but everything about this day has been off.] It makes me wonder if I'd really want Tori to be here. I wouldn't want her to disappear on me, or for me to disappear on her.

[Sigh.]

I don't understand how they can enjoy doing these sort of things to us.

may 26th | action

[imatreenow]

[He, on the other hand, would never wish not to have Martel here. He's slowly getting better, untwisting, but he still needs her by his side.]

...It's because they don't care about us. They don't care if we suffer, as long as they can still use us as test subjects. [Then he quickly falls quiet, realizing he had been no different not all that long ago.]

may 26th | action

[sketchingideals]

[Covers his face.]

So no matter how much suffering we go through, it'll never be enough... [He then looks back up, smiling just a little.] We just need to make the best of it then, right?

[Hands trembling, still very much upset--but Tori wouldn't want that, would she?]

may 26th | action

[imatreenow]

You make it sound so easy. [He doesn't speak with bitterness - this is incredulity.]

may 26th | action

[sketchingideals]

No. [Shakes his head.] I know it isn't--I don't mean for it to sound like it is. But Tori wouldn't want me to be so miserable. She'd want me to continue believing in the beauty of the world the way I always have, and not give up. Looking like Tori is painful, and I miss her like nothing else... but continuing to dwell on that pain would be letting the Malnosso win. I have to at least try.

...and it's probably out of line to say, but Martel would probably want you to try to, Mithos. I don't think she'd want you to be hurt by Malnosso's actions, especially if they were using her against you.

may 26th | action

[imatreenow]

[He's silent for a moment. He hates having to hear that from someone else's mouth, someone who doesn't even know his sister, but...] ...No, she wouldn't.

She wouldn't want me to give into despair. I know that now, but I still don't know how to do that.

may 26th | action

[sketchingideals]

...even if you don't know, Mithos... [Smiles.] I believe you can know. It's never too late to relearn.

may 26th | action

[imatreenow]

[Inhale. Exhale.] ...Right. I have to at least keep trying. [He tries not to sound as uncertain as he feels. For the moment, he's forgetting the awkwardness between them - talking to the other boy almost comes naturally.]

may 26th | action

[sketchingideals]

[The more the conversation progresses, the more hopefulness lights up Jeb's face... no, Tori's face. He's not even sure what he's trying to accomplish anymore. Is it filling Mithos with some kind of hope, or himself? Or just trying not to look so miserable while looking like his girlfriend?]

Surely, if both of us keep trying... we'll get somewhere, right? [He tries standing again--oh, stupid hips! Back down he goes. How does Tori do this? But he laughs, despite himself. ...he's missed Tori's laugh so much. At least being in her body lets him hear it again, right? So he doesn't somehow forget...]

may 26th | action

[imatreenow]

[The laughter surprises him; he doesn't really know what to say.] I hope that's true.

[He extends a tentative hand down toward Jeb. He may be plagued with doubts and insecurities, but that just means he has to try to push past it all.]

may 26th | action

[sketchingideals]

[Jeb stares up at Mithos, very surprised indeed. A couple of moments pass before he smiles brightly and takes Mithos' hand.]

may 26th | action

[imatreenow]

[He quickly turns his eyes away, closing his fingers around Jeb's hand and pulling him up.]

may 26th | action

[sketchingideals]

[And up we go! In Tori's body, he's about an inch taller than Mithos.]

Thank you. I'm really not used to this. [Sheepish laughter.]

may 26th | action

[imatreenow]

...It was nothing. [That's really all he can think of to say, after all that.]

may 26th | action

[sketchingideals]

Still, it's more than I expected. It made me happy. [W-What is he saying? Is he even thinking about what's coming out of his mouth?]