Don't you think I thought about that? Do you have any idea how much time I spent wondering what to do? How afraid I was that I would come back with both legs useless? I already told you, I had no other choice! What else was I supposed to do? [He doesn't care if he's using words like 'afraid'. Silver has no damn right to attack him for this, after he practically clawed his hair out thinking himself in circles about it before he took the plunge.]