Why not? [At least the venom bite is back in his words, filling the wide tundra that had been there before.]

You have no idea what I went through after my sister's death...what it felt like to fail to resurrect her over and over again...to come so close to achieving everything I'd dreamed of only to have it ripped away from me! And then finding out that-- [Martel hadn't wanted any of it to begin with. He stops himself, wanting to hold that shameful secret as close to himself as possible.]