I never said I wasn't! [It's an accusation he's lived with for as long as he could remember, one that he long ago acknowledged as a part of himself he would always hate, that he can't be as ready to forget as the women who raised and risked everything for him.] I didn't say to let it go!
[Control, that's all they can do that's all he wanted he doesn't want to see their blood on his hands again, it was all him it was all his fault. If he had only had better control...!
It doesn't matter that Frey is restricting him so, he still tries to go around him even though his hands move of their own accord, gripping on to him almost as though he were his last lifeline as he tried to stop shaking, earth still flying up around them as his breath began to go into an irregular pattern. He didn't want this he didn't want to think about that pain, how much it must have hurt if she was driven to tears...]
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[Control, that's all they can do that's all he wanted he doesn't want to see their blood on his hands again, it was all him it was all his fault. If he had only had better control...!
It doesn't matter that Frey is restricting him so, he still tries to go around him even though his hands move of their own accord, gripping on to him almost as though he were his last lifeline as he tried to stop shaking, earth still flying up around them as his breath began to go into an irregular pattern. He didn't want this he didn't want to think about that pain, how much it must have hurt if she was driven to tears...]