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[imatreenow]

For those moments when we're in between posts and need to thread something out.

Please note the date and the type of post - action, written, or voice.

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[Action | June 24th]

[imatreenow.livejournal.com]

[And they're back to this... But when it comes to her, there's never any easy topic.]

No, I don't.

[Action | June 24th]

[wise_maiden]

That is your decision. A conscious choice. [And why he's still in there.]

[Action | June 24th]

[imatreenow.livejournal.com]

Why do you think it's so easy to just walk away from something? [he realizes a second too late that this statement contradicts what he'd said earlier just enough to discredit his previous indifference about the shift, but that doesn't matter enough right now. Because he's bitter, and he's frustrated, and he knows he's right. He needs to be right.]

[Action | June 24th]

[wise_maiden]

I never said it was easy. But you've certainly changed your tune from just a few minutes ago.

[Action | June 24th]

[imatreenow.livejournal.com]

Shut up. [Build the wall up. He regrets having said anything on the matter; everything is unraveling with that single question. If he hadn't been able to walk away from the last shift, or from what had happened when they had encountered each other during the draft, or from what had happened with Sayo, or so many other things...]

Just shut up!

[It's ironic. He's good at running away - shouldn't walking away be easier? He wonders what the difference is and how it's so profound. Walking away means leaving something behind and never even looking back. Running away means something is chasing you, and you won't be able to hide from it forever.]

[Action | June 24th]

[wise_maiden]

I believe I've said all I needed to say.

[ Because she does not like to waste her time talking to idiots. Mithos is just a special case. ]

[Action | June 24th]

[imatreenow.livejournal.com]

[He hates this...but what else is new? Control over this conversation had slipped through his fingers too quickly, but he can at least end it on his own terms.]

Then spare me from anymore of your naive fairytales. I don't need to hear it.

[Action | June 24th]

[wise_maiden]

I understand. After all, you have a lot to think about already.

[ and with that, she'll be on her way. ]

[Action | June 24th]

[imatreenow.livejournal.com]

...There's nothing to think about. [Maybe she's still within earshot, maybe she isn't. It doesn't matter; she would just continue to believe what she wants to believe regardless.

And what she wants to believe is everything he wants to strangle and drown. There's too much to think about, and he doesn't want to because that only validates the protruding thoughts. Lets them seep into him and distort his air-tight rationale.

He crouches by the items she had dropped off and gathers up the medical supplies. Working on his slowly healing wounds might anesthetize his mind. Everything is how it's supposed to be; he's right and they're all wrong wrong wrong; nothing is crumbling inside of him.]