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Mithos Yggdrasill ([personal profile] imatreenow) wrote2011-09-18 03:57 pm

thirteen [voice/action/just terrible]

[Mid-morning is drawing near, and the house is too quiet. Martel should have been awake already. Despite the uncertainty that has settled heavily between him and his sister, there are plenty of things Mithos does still know about her, and this is definitely out of the ordinary. Softly, he knocks at her door. No reply. With a knot of worry tightening in his stomach, he carefully pushes the door open to look inside and...

He's greeted by an empty room. No sister, none of her personal possessions. No sign that anyone had ever occupied this space. Only one conclusion sits at the end of this equation. Numbness overtakes his body and heart. Desperate, his mind fights against the truth; he runs for his journal and hastily, shakily, flips it open.]


[VOICE - filtered to Martel | filter VOIDED]

Martel? Martel! Where are--

[--He stops. The filter isn't working. She can't hear this. His journal falls from his hands and the feed ends. The chilling realization that she's gone pierces him as suddenly as the first time she was taken from him. Classic vertigo. He doesn't know how to breathe properly. He forgets how to stand on two feet and slowly crumples to the floor. He doesn't fall to pieces; that would imply that there's something left to break. Whatever remains is quickly grinding to dust. He lets it out, the pain that's rapidly smothering him from the inside. But no matter how much he diffuses, there's still more to take its place.]

[ACTION - AFTERNOON]

[He's scraped himself up off the floor (for now) and run out of tears (for now), and he needs someone to blame. Anyone. He doesn't care. The only truth of the world: Martel is gone, and he deserves compensation for his loss. Everyone owes him something, and he owes them retribution. Mithos prowls the village, looking for any and all opportunities to inflict some of his own pain on a scapegoat.

Later, when he's exhausted his body but his hurt and rage continue to burn, when he's hit the point where he can't feel any emptier, he reaches for the journal again. It's all he can think to do.]


[VOICE - filtered to Kaori| 100%]

...Can I come see you?

[ooc: For my own sake, chronologically the threads flow as follows: Frey, Nephry/Dist, Jeb, Silver, Grune/Dhaos, Kratos, Kaori.]

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-08 07:48 am (UTC)(link)
[He stumbles back a short distance but catches himself from falling. ...Of course, being separated from his sword poses a problem. He makes no move, glaring defiantly up at Kratos, seething.]

What gives you the right to live, Kratos?!

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-13 10:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[He certainly does. With a snarl he launches himself forward, aiming not for Kratos but for the weapon on the ground. He'll reach down to grab it as he runs by, unless Kratos interferes.]

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-13 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[He staggers sideways, correcting his balance against falling over due to his momentum being stopped completely.]

Kratos! Get out of my way!

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[identity profile] shiningbinds.livejournal.com 2011-10-13 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)


You should know by now that I cannot do that.

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-15 05:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[Of course he knows by now - when had Kratos first started getting in his way? How far back? Even though he had promised his loyalty (how many times?), even though he had understood at one time (when did that stop?)...

Now would be a good time to start backing away, out a weapon and at a disadvantage without so much as an Exsphere equipped. Instead, he lunges forward with the intent of wresting the sword from Kratos.]

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-17 06:56 am (UTC)(link)
[He isn't going to let that happen again - he blocks Kratos with one arm, moving in with the other to attempt to pry his fingers off.]

Then stop me with your sword! [Yes, baiting is a good idea when it's very possible the other will follow through. Of course he doesn't mean it; it's hard to think straight when your mind is being drowned by your heart. The feeling that he's fighting with a brick wall while he's a tangle of glass emotions is just pissing him off. Have a sharp kick in the shin.]

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-24 05:15 am (UTC)(link)
[There's no way Kratos would miss from such close proximity - the blade connects with his arm and Mithos hisses out a pained cry. Blood drips down his arm. But he's still trying to wrest his sword free, pulling as his body reels back from the pain, willing Kratos's grip to loosen.]

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-24 08:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's blind to Kratos's regret; all he sees is a man who betrayed him on so many levels. Refusing to give in on this end too, except his efforts exacerbate the wound on his arm and he grunts in pain. Letting go to clutch his arm as more blood flows out, he staggers back from Kratos. No no no, he can't let this worthless disgusting miserable traitor win, he can't...

He wants to tear Kratos to shreds. His hand is quickly becoming wet with blood. There aren't even words for the intense anger and bitter hatred coursing through him at this moment, but they come pouring out anyway.]
You're...worth even less than dirt! I don't know what I ever saw in you! You're nothing but a miserable traitor!

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-24 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's stepping back, but his glare refuses to back down with him. The verbal abuse doesn't stop either. If only words could cut flesh...] I can't even stand looking at you! You disgust me!

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-24 10:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't ignore me! [You're not allowed to just stand there like there's nothing to say. He isn't going to be brushed off by such a lowly piece of trash; Kratos is one of those who owes him compensation more than anyone else.]

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-24 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[Whatever. He's done with this. ...No, he's far from done with this - he wants to see Kratos laying in a bloody pile on the ground, begging for forgiveness that will never come. But right now...his injuries are too much, accumulated over the day and taking a heavy toll on him. He's still clutching at his arm, but it isn't enough to help the bleeding.]

...I'm done with wasting my time on you. [backing away more, but he isn't going to turn his back just yet.]

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[identity profile] shiningbinds.livejournal.com 2011-10-24 11:15 pm (UTC)(link)
...there's nothing I could have said to make you happy, Mithos.

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-25 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
[That's enough to halt his retreat. Because what even is that? What gives him the right--?]

Don't act like you're sorry!

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[identity profile] shiningbinds.livejournal.com 2011-10-25 05:52 am (UTC)(link)
I believe that I said nothing of the sort.

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-25 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
Then what did you mean? [This is a trick question; there is no right answer, only wrong ones. But his seething anger and completely unhinged rationality keep him going.]

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[identity profile] imatreenow.livejournal.com 2011-10-25 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
[He's tired of this. The depths of his rage are almost in league with his endless sorrow at this point, mixing potently inside him and wiping his heart out completely. Whatever is left of it anyway. He can't deal with all of this right now, or ever. He just wants to rest...for a long time. Without thinking, without feeling.]

...I don't care. [Except that's not exactly the problem, now is it? With one final glare, he turns to stalk off. Well, by this point it's more like staggering off, still holding onto that arm. His senses remained finely tuned, ready to detect any movement from Kratos.]

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