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I'm fine. [She wasn't going to allow this weakness to hinder her more than she has to.] Are we going to land soon?

[He quickly spots a suitable landing site and gestures toward it.] Over there should be fine. Just hold on.

[He'll start lowering altitude, evenly, not too fast, clasping her hand tightly.]

[Her hold on his hand is likely to be tighter than his at this point, especially with her eyes squeezed shut as tightly as they are. Really, she expects to just fall at any moment now and dammit why does she have to have such a weakness?]

[He notices, and squeezes he hand reassuringly as they get closer and closer to the ground. Just a few more feet...

He lowers himself to the ground but doesn't touch down, preferring to stay hovering in the air. Gesturing to the ground, indicating that it's safe to let go now.]

[Her feet manage to touch ground, but she still refuses to let go just yet. It was still too easy to remember just why being blind scares her so much whenever she would find herself in these situations.]

Are there any people around yet?

[he assumes she means in the greater area, and listens carefully through the din of the rainforest. Unfortunately, the ability to sense people's mana becomes useless when no one in this world has any mana flowing through them.] ...No, we're alone.

Good. [And now she falls to her knees, because that was more mentally exhausting than it should have been. The only ones she openly flew with back home were people who knew she was blind, after all.]

Kaori! [He's on the ground in an instant, bent over her slightly, a protective hand hovering over her shoulder while the other rests on his knee.] What's wrong? Was it too hard on your wings?

No, it wasn't! [Now she's trying to give him a reassuring smile, but it was harder than it should be. This handicap... he really did have to know, and Mithos wouldn't betray her, so... why has she waited so long to tell him, really?]

Actually... there's something I need to tell you...

[He's reaching for her arm with the intent to help her back to her feet when she says that. A look, both perplexed and concerned - what could she possibly want to tell him now?]

What is it, Kaori? [trying to be gentle, but the worry overpowers it]

Well... [She turns her head away from him, trying to think of what the best way would be to tell this to him. It was just a little strange, because so far everyone in Luceti who knew of her blindness had found out without her consent, and back home it had been her adoptive father who told those she would have to work alongside with... Therefore she has no experience to draw on for this.]

You haven't noticed at all?

[Noticed...? Mithos thinks back to the strange behavior she had displayed earlier, other little hints accumulating... He gives her a searching look, trying to fit pieces together.]

...You have trouble seeing. [half a question, half a statement]

[He figured it out right away, so it... doesn't necessarily make telling him easier, but it's quite a burden off her shoulders. It would make reaching the truth that much easier.]

It's... it's more than that, Mithos. [She closes her eyes, a small, very sad smile on her face.] ... I can't see at all. Not for years.

[Now he's staring in shock, forgetting all about helping her back up, just loosely holding onto her upper arm. She can't see...at all? Nothing? But that sounds so...]

...Aren't you afraid? [to live in a world that hates you, with the handicap of never knowing who could be nearby or even where you are...]

... All the time. [For all the reasons he thought of and more. Her memory of when she first woke up blind after having been in a coma is one of the few she has out in her open consciousness, even if all there was to that memory were sound and paralyzing fear.]

I... I've always been scared of the dark, y'know? So... even though it's been a long time, waking up in the morning is still scary.

[More than he did already, he wants to protect her. To keep her safe and brush away at least some of the fear.]

I...can't even imagine that. I don't know what I would do. [here, he reaches down to firmly take one of her hands and pulls gently up to guide her to her feet, his other hand still grasping her arm.] ...You're really strong, Kaori.

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... You think so? [She didn't hear that very often, so when it does come up she always has to question it. SHould it really be considered strong that she has such a vulnerable weakness?

Despite these thoughts she accepts his help in standing up, even though she could have managed on her own. For some reason, it felt okay to depend on Mithos' help, when any other time she would have lashed out at a person for the same feat.]

[He nods, before realizing she can't see that] Yes... I think I would have given up, in the same situation. [Could he have even become 'Mithos the Hero'? With the guidance of his sister, and his former companions, perhaps. But after Martel was taken away, after hope was drained from the world...]

... But I don't want to give up just yet, Mithos. [According to Seirou... it was still possible for her to regain her sight, though she still couldn't understand what he meant when he told her how. Even though she did give up at one point.]

But I'm still scared, y'know? And if I try to give up... it just gets scarier.

I wonder, which is scarier...to give up or keep trying... [Isn't that why he gave up his path as a 'hero'? Because he was more afraid of losing his sister than he was of letting the world fall into ruin... He shakes his head.]

Still, you're definitely strong, living each day like that and wanting to keep going no matter what. [and he also wonders...does this mean he's the more broken of the two? He isn't sure what to make of that.]

[He may say that, but there are many times she wonders if it really is her being weak by trying to ignore her fears about being blind. It leads her to being closer to people than she would like to be, and becoming closer as well. SHe wished she could give up.]

... But I have you now Mithos, right? That.. it'll make it easier to get through every day because I have you here as my friend.

[She always seems to know what he needs to hear...]

[He can't help but smile warmly, doubts and anxieties smoothed over. He's impressed by her strength, and at the same time so, so afraid for her, but...]

...Yes. You have me, and I'll do everything I can to protect you, Kaori.

Thank you so much, Mithos. [For his friendship, for his kindness... For everything. He was the friend she needed in this world that was so confusing and at times, frightening.]

It's nothing. [but he's happy to hear that. Really happy, in spite of everything. He likes that she makes him feel less lonely, and he wants to make her feel safe in return.]

I should thank you, too. You're there for me.

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